Memory

itu kejam.

tell me, my, are you happy there?

my way

And now, the end is near,
And so I face the final curtain.
My friends, I’ll say it clear;
I’ll state my case of which I’m certain.

I’ve lived a life that’s full -
I’ve travelled each and every highway.
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets? I’ve had a few,
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course -
Each careful step along the byway,
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I’m sure you knew,
When I bit off more than I could chew,
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall
And did it my way.

I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried,
I’ve had my fill – my share of losing.
But now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that,
And may I say, not in a shy way -
Oh no. Oh no, not me.
I did it my way.

For what is a man? What has he got?
If not himself – Then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way.

Yes, it was my way.

don’t you dare to care too much about me and my way

just read

my previous blog.. it was full of sentimental feeling i had. i had that blog since december 2006, but well there i wrote my poems since i was in high school.. hohoho.

i once wrote about my dream boy when i was still, ummm, fourteen? wew i had crush on him for about 4-5 years..

i also wrote my poems when i broke up with my high school boyfriend.

there were also poems about my best friend whom apparently i loved, and well he loved me back..

there i wrote also about my feelings toward arif. okay, i had no idea how should i wrote his name or alias. voldermort? countolaf? teabing? ipin? pogo?  eeeeewwwww i loved him so muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch..

in 2006, i also dated my other senior. during that time we had ups-and-downs, and i wrote some poems. including when we broke up.

during my intern in erfurt, i wrote also some feeling i had.

and the last, of course there were a LOT of poems and things i wrote about me and my last bf and my hubby. good times. bad times. we HAD it all. UPs and DOWNs. CRY(ie)s and LAUGHs. HAPPY(ie)s and SADs.

i laughed when i read it all back. but well, i felt unsaidable feeling. i surely treasure my past.. now and then. always. because that’s where i grew up from..

i’m in the mood for love

I’m in the mood for love simply because you’re near me
Funny but when you’re near me, I’m in the mood for love.
Heaven is in your eyes, bright as the stars we’re under,
Oh, is it any wonder, I’m in the mood for love.
Why stop to think of whether this little dream might fade,
We´ve put our hearts together – now we are one, I’m not afraid.
If there’s a cloud above, if it should rain, we’ll let it.
But for tonight forget it, I’m in the mood for love.

i miss u..

Wish list…

wish list:

1. mobil

2. nodame cantabile 21, popcorn

3. baby yang sehat

4. makan pasta

5. pergi ke erfurt lagi..

6.

ga tau lagi.. keknya emg keinginanku tuh sebenernya ga banyak.. terus ga penting2 semua gitu.. kalo mobil, ok, lah.. tapi komik n makanan???? wekwew.. mungkin aku tuh orang yang terlalu puas sama hidup kali ya,.. gimana lagi dong, aku udah dikasih semuanya sih sama Allah..

Baby Genius..

lagi nonton baby genius.. woohooo!! Apakah babyku nanti gtu juga ya.. meskipun gremeng2 ga jelas, tapi ternyata lagi komunikasi sama baby2 yang lain?? huehehehe noch 7 monaten..

Pengen..

Sekarang sih baby umurnya dah 6-7 minggu.. Ga sabar deh. Rencananya nanti sebelum mas Rully berangkat ke Lematang, kita mau cek lagi ke dokter.. hihihoho..

Pgn deh beli mobil.. pgn pgn pgn..

My thoughts today:

1. Knp sih biskuit Jacobs yg ini isinya cuma 5? Harusnya kan 6.. Huh! Rugi…

2. Kenapa sih, instead of saying thanks, she keeps bugging me by asking this and that. Kan sebel juga. Ik udah bikin 1000  objek lebih bo. Mana skrg lagi bedrest pula..

3.  I keep worrying about my baby in the womb. Baby, please hang in there.. I am really longing to see u..

4. All i want to say is maybe: Congratulation on your wedding. I hope, that you’ll be a happy person, who doesn’t bother someone else’s life anymore.

5. Knp aku ga mual ya? Malah selera makannya tinggi. Katanya kalo orng2 lain minum preabor, pasti langsung mual.

dedek kecilku..

sehat-sehat ya.. tunggu ayah pulang 3 hari lagi.. nanti kita ke dokter. Bunda juga udah pengen ketemu dedek. Makanya dedek sehat-sehat ya..

Beautiful Memories

i don’t want to lose

these happy memories

when you make me smile

and my heart melts to see yours

 

i want to hold it tight

so time won’t take it away

and i will always bring it with me

so i ain’t never forget.

 

i hope you will always remember too

these times we laugh together.